Normally I do my absolute best to upload a blog post at least once every other day, but I haven't done that for the last week. On Friday night we lost my cat, Mac. He was very old, older than me even, and although it was his time to go it doesn't make it any easier because I have lost a member of my family.
Anyone with pets will know what it's like to lose them. My parents have had Mac since he was a rescue kitten and he's been there my entire life. To any non-animal lovers I can't really explain how it feels but Mac was such a huge part of my life because he was always there, his presence was constant, and he and I had such a special bond. For him it was the best, not many cats are lucky enough to make it to twenty after all but he hadn't been comfortable for a while. On Friday evening he laid down on his blanket in his favourite corner, looking blissfully happy and perfectly comfortable for the first time in months and months... and just slipped away. In less than two weeks I'm moving to London to start my new life as a fashion student, and knowing that I won't have to pick up the phone and hear Mac had died without being able to say goodbye is a lovely thing. It's almost like he knew.
One of the very first posts I read on Adam Gallagher's site I Am Galla, which remains my biggest inspiration, was about his cat passing away and I distinctly remember thinking "god, I hope I never have to do that", but here we are. I don't usually do such personal posts on here but I felt this was important, and at least this will explain my absence on the blog, which I hope to return to very soon.
xoxo Toramarra
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